Phases

Today I feel different about things again. 

I see how time passes through the years and how much we've grown. From talking about which institute is next, to how many more years to setting up your own family 

In my mind I see an ideal picture of how my family would look like in future. I don't ask for much, just comfortabilty and ever lasting love

And then I feel sad about what I shouldn't, again 

It's sad how I lose interest in something or someone that fast 

Is it okay to know who will make it to your future and who wouldn't? Is it okay to give people death sentences when they least deserve it? 

Maybe I'm really a horrible human

Dear you

Drafting this up at 754am in the morning bcuz thoughts just gather at anytime of the day 

I haven't been feeling very good about anything at all- school, myself and what not 

School's been tough lately, but I'm told I worry too much for nothing at all. I need to learn to slow down my pace and explore different possibilities when it comes to something versatile. Maybe I just haven't found my direction yet, but I'll be fine, I'll get there

And what pleasure it is to be able to come home(not literally but good enough) to someone whom is ever so supportive and encouraging and filled to the brim with passionate love for me? 

I am aware how much of a blessing bing is in my life. He's the perfect epitome of a partner you want to spend your whole lifetime with, through the good the bad and the ugly

No one possesses as much patience and tolerance as bing towards me. He's so humble and rationale, he's such a nice person/boyfriend/bestfriend/everything 

I'm sorry I've been such a brat recently, throwing incessant tempers at you. And when I do that you don't even get angry, you just get nicer

You're a gem my love, you're really a gem

I hope you know I love you very much 

Plushers

It is true when they say action speaks louder than words

I love someone whom is always humble and doesn't say much about what he has to offer, he just goes all the way out to prove it. What is more genuine than heartfelt actions? 

Blessed to have you// blessed to have you loving me

That aside, I've been feeling rather shitty. Keep wanting to throw up as and when, esp after meals. And my head aches for no reason sometimes 

Am I dying 

School hasn't been very nice to me. Work load piling up like a mountain longing for any form of growth. Oh and I don't wanna remind myself today is only the 3rd day of a new semester 

Can't wait to graduate already 

Blue

It's upsetting to hear about break ups, friends or strangers 

I feel leaving someone always make my heart cringe. I just wish love between two is strong enough to keep them together come what may 

Keep whoever makes you smile

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Feeling sad because school is starting.

When school starts, everything else stops. Alone time stops, together-time stops. I stop. 

I just want to rest, why is life so hard on me