March

Intentionally seeing things I know would make my heart fall all the way to my legs, just so to remind myself that I'm still alive, breathing and feeling 

7 months have passed us by, time really flies but I am not one bit surprised. Things are happening, plants are growing, and I am still stationary on a wasteland beyond salvation 

Get up tiny, it's probably about time  

Puddles

They asked if i had a choice to choose- one that is perfect but short-lived, or one that is imperfect but last for a life time? 

I would go for the latter. 

Feeling more than I should on a Sunday morning. Just wish sometimes I could just give certain things I don't wanna see a go and just continue the happy stride.

We all wished feelings doesn't exist sometimes. But then again, I'll rather hurt than feel nothing at all. 

Ill be okay 

Swim deep

Oh why hello there

Had a free day today on the first week of school because nie has yet to start. But free days are evil, they disrupt my on going momentum 

Been sleeping the whole of today and who knows where this fatigue came about

Everything is going too fast in my life. I have yet to come to face that I'm in the last year of studies in NAFA, and soon enough ill be dealing with more than what I'm capable of 

Thinking about what's in stall for me in future gives me the creeps but what's better than embracing it with open arms?

I have decided too, that I want to focus on my studies for now and dish aside whatever distracts me. I want to do well not only for my parents but for everyone that looks highly upon me. 

Days have been better than mundane but not so much worth elaborating. Just living life and pretty much just having more alone time 

Some days I feel like I need somebody to be in my life to share my joy and carry my pain. But somedays I know if I'm not strong enough to hold myself together how do I hold two 

Its the longest time i havent had anyone alongside but being alone isn't that bad after all 

The time to feel again will come, for now contentment shall get me by

Knots and spots

They say you never really stop caring for someone no matter how things have changed 

All these subtle yet impactful feelings are stirring up again. Pains me to see whatever is appearing before me but pains me even more to know i can do nothing to make things better. We all want the best for ourselves and the people we care about isn't it

Just hoping this little bit goes a long way 

Pleats

Been drawing a lot lately to keep things off my mind 

But at 3.11AM thoughts just have to come into a whirlpool. I don't wna feel I really don't wna feel 

Everything feels so horrible. 

:'( 

Take me away

Tick tock

Another night seeing the minutes passed as I lay rested on my comfy bed 

Haven't been able to sleep at all lately and I really wonder what's keeping me up. My mind right now is really anything but clouded

Talked to liling about how I'm happy with things in my life right now, and she agrees that some people are just too nice you want to keep them to yourself. 

I've made mistakes in the past this I don't deny. It's hard to make up for whatever already happened but it's better late than never 

It's about time I start widening my lenses to look at people before I decide to plate my feelings accordingly. 

Days will get better, slowly but surely