It's sad how we don't talk to people we love anymore. 

And sad is but an understatement

They say it takes a lot to let go, and even more to move on 

The day I get better will come

Patience tiny, patience 

How do people let go and move on? 

Happier now but somethings still remain at the back of my head. I don't know

It's time to go tiny stop dwelling :( 

Today

Today is the day we made a pact a year ago. 

I haven't forgotten at all. 

But then again.... Maybe promises are meant to be broken afterall. 

19th oct will always be in my mind, and so will you. 

Much love and misses 

19th

19th of the month again. What are you feeling? 

This 19th feels like home to me. But home, without you. 

Hope all's been well for you.  

Why

I think I still miss bing. 

Thought I was ready to let go only to realize I still have a long way to go 

Need not for salvation. Just want live in denial. 

Maybe I'm just really inconsolable.

Sad, very sad

If it's not you then who

How long more do I have to deny my feelings just so we can all move on 

All that exhaustion I can't deal with 

 

:'( 

Miss you but so what? I was the one who left. I gave up on us before you gave up on me

So tired of fighting for nothing at all. 

I hope you're happier without me. :')

I miss

Still you

Three months have passed us by.

I've got so much on my mind to say but I dare not, every night I go on whatsapp and tell myself if I see your status 'online' it means fate allows me to talk to you

But I type a whole chunk and then I erase them all again. 

I don't have the courage. I am not brave enough to let you know how damn fucking much I miss you because so what if I do? It doesn't change anything does it? 

But bing I miss you so much.. So much it hurts me everyday 

When night falls and I tuck myself in bed, I think about all the things that happened too fast for us to get a grip 

Everyone says we're so loving// they asked what happened? Why the sudden separation?// it makes me so sad 

Ever since the day we decided to let things go, I haven't really done exactly that. I still wish to come home to you everyday 

Grad night I was so happy, I thought you will be there. When I got your text I was even happier because you remembered my big day, but then my mood just fell because you couldn't make it. But I understand it's work, and we all have priorities. My classmates didn't know we broke up; they asked me 'where's bing why isn't he coming?' Idk what to say so I just smiled and say work's eating you up. But who knows it's killing me inside 

Every night for the past 3 months I still wish it was you. I wish the person you wake up to is me and the one I accomplish things with is you 

I miss you so much my little bing :'( 

I am so sad. I know whatever I say now will not bring you back. I am not happier and I dont care what you think about me hanging out with other guys because at the end of the day, it's stil you

It has always been you since the day I said yes, yes I will be your girlfriend. 

Remember we say to have our little family after 3 years of dating? To get our first car at 25? To aim to live at keppel bay?

Remember how we made museo our favorite place? And say to always frequent this place because it's so beautiful? 

I remember so much even until now. Today a lady wearing your perfume got on the bus.. That made me miss you even more. Everything I see or do or smell brings me back to us

It's so easy to want to slip back into comfort.... But I know I don't deserve you anymore 

I don't wanna love another person because nothing feels as good as loving you 

I miss you so much idk what else to do anymore 

Somedays I just really want to wait for you below your block and run into your arms but I know that's crazy because you'll prolly just chase me away 

And nothing hurts more than that..  

I wish you knew how much everything is killing me because we are so near yet so far.. Because we gave up when there is still love.. It's all my fault 

I know when things are broken it'll never feel the same again. But I am always ready to give it a second try.. Anything for you is worth it 

Today I will tell you this: 

And that is, I will never love someone until you come back to me again. I will always be standing here waiting for you to be ready to love me, no matter how long it takes 

It will always be you that is in my heart// no matter where I go, or what I do, it is still you 

The only courage I have left is to dedicate this post to you. I know it means nothing much but at least you know how I feel about you even until today.. 

I need you to know how fucking much I miss you bing I'm not even kidding 

We made a pact to meet on 19th October 2014. Is it still on? 

I will look forward to that day everyday from now till it comes. I will not lose hope because you say I should fight for the things I want 

And I will fight for you. Just that this time, I will do it quietly. I will love you from a distance because that's the best I can do 

I miss you and i know the day we make up will come. 

Takecare meanwhile and just so you know, whatever happens you'll always have me here. 

Somethings never change.. I still love you and I will love you for a really long time. 

See you on 19th October my love. 

We'll make it, time will tell.

:') <3

:)

It's been awhile my love. Haven't really been spending much time together but I'm just glad we're getting better everyday 

I hope you know I notice how much you love me, and that I've taken into consideration each time I leave how much it's gonna hurt you 

I think about so much every time we fight. And after we make up, it doesn't just go away 

How do you do it? How do you not give up on me when I've said such nasty things to you? 

How do you still love me quietly and let yourself down afterwards? 

Can't say more than you are a gem 

Love you very much 

Got some things I need to say 

But I will tell you when the time is right 

I always say honesty is the best policy but how many times have I compromised that

I don't practice what I preach I'm such a bad kid 

But life teaches us to fend for ourselves anyway 

Maybe I'm not that bad afterall 

-

Is it time to let you go

They say things that comes easy will not last. Will we be the living proof 

Feeling feelings are stupid 

I don't wanna feel

-

Why do we not dare admit what we feel is not the same, or at least not the same anymore

Lesser time, lesser post, lesser you, lesser me

Lesser us

Will we be gone someday 

When? 

Leiii

Life sucks 

 

No time for you no time for me

But it will only get worse. 

I am forced to embrace such tough life, but it's okay, life is tough but I am tougher

Go go tiny 

Hover

New year but not feeling it

Is it the workload or is it just me

Phases

Today I feel different about things again. 

I see how time passes through the years and how much we've grown. From talking about which institute is next, to how many more years to setting up your own family 

In my mind I see an ideal picture of how my family would look like in future. I don't ask for much, just comfortabilty and ever lasting love

And then I feel sad about what I shouldn't, again 

It's sad how I lose interest in something or someone that fast 

Is it okay to know who will make it to your future and who wouldn't? Is it okay to give people death sentences when they least deserve it? 

Maybe I'm really a horrible human

Dear you

Drafting this up at 754am in the morning bcuz thoughts just gather at anytime of the day 

I haven't been feeling very good about anything at all- school, myself and what not 

School's been tough lately, but I'm told I worry too much for nothing at all. I need to learn to slow down my pace and explore different possibilities when it comes to something versatile. Maybe I just haven't found my direction yet, but I'll be fine, I'll get there

And what pleasure it is to be able to come home(not literally but good enough) to someone whom is ever so supportive and encouraging and filled to the brim with passionate love for me? 

I am aware how much of a blessing bing is in my life. He's the perfect epitome of a partner you want to spend your whole lifetime with, through the good the bad and the ugly

No one possesses as much patience and tolerance as bing towards me. He's so humble and rationale, he's such a nice person/boyfriend/bestfriend/everything 

I'm sorry I've been such a brat recently, throwing incessant tempers at you. And when I do that you don't even get angry, you just get nicer

You're a gem my love, you're really a gem

I hope you know I love you very much 

Plushers

It is true when they say action speaks louder than words

I love someone whom is always humble and doesn't say much about what he has to offer, he just goes all the way out to prove it. What is more genuine than heartfelt actions? 

Blessed to have you// blessed to have you loving me

That aside, I've been feeling rather shitty. Keep wanting to throw up as and when, esp after meals. And my head aches for no reason sometimes 

Am I dying 

School hasn't been very nice to me. Work load piling up like a mountain longing for any form of growth. Oh and I don't wanna remind myself today is only the 3rd day of a new semester 

Can't wait to graduate already 

Blue

It's upsetting to hear about break ups, friends or strangers 

I feel leaving someone always make my heart cringe. I just wish love between two is strong enough to keep them together come what may 

Keep whoever makes you smile

-

Feeling sad because school is starting.

When school starts, everything else stops. Alone time stops, together-time stops. I stop. 

I just want to rest, why is life so hard on me