Gray

Still feeling sad after reading a blog post about love 

I feel it's always sad to let go of something, but maybe after awhile it makes you happier 

Letting go of love with love, haven't we all been there before? I have. I feel sad, because memory is sweet, even when it's painful, memory is sweet. 

Why can't two whom love each other just be together 

:( 

Life is cruel, and so is love

Some say love

Thankful

Thankful for everyday

Thankful for everyday with you 

You're the best, xx

Boo

Bad bad day :( 

I should really start being more aware of the feelings of people I love. Aches me to see how my insensitivity caused an hour of unnecessary sadness today 

But tears are part of the whole ocean we are swimming in, isn't it

Nobody knows why you love me so much more than I do, so much that you oversee things that I won't be able to myself 

Tomorrow when we wake up we emerge stronger

I know we will go far.

La da dee

Oh why hello there 

Haven't been to this space for a really long time so I thought ill just pop by since I've been on my bed two hours ago not being able to sleep

Ok wow that was a really long sentence 

But that aside... Life's been great! Having my long awaited and well deserved break now. Nothing feels better than being away and free from all that artsy workload 

Too much of some thing is always unhealthy 

Break time also means more me time and Binghui time. Finally started working out again....... Been pigging out a lot ever since I've been with bing bcuz he eats so much (it's actually quite scary)

Really miss everything at Hom Yoga but I guess I shall make do with the current place I've signed on with since I'm nothing but a little broke sloth 

Haven't been feeling very well lately too.. Caught the flu bug and everything else just keeps attacking me but I'll be fine!!! Lucky to have bing and mama+papa sloths always worrying and making sure I get well

Big hug for all of you :) 

Was just telling my mates over today's lunch that we shouldnt lose touch with the artsy feel so I bought new canvases to paint! Quite excited to be touching oil paint again after all that design shit 

Thinking about it, we're only left with a month before school starts all over again.. Last sem before we're done with NAFA! Mixed feelings about the upcoming graduation because 1. I feel I haven't learnt enough in NAFA 2. I don't wanna start teaching just yet 

'Growing up is scary' is finally getting to me 

Time also flies when I'm with bing. Seems like no matter the number of hours we spend together doesn't feel like it's enough. But then again, how do we measure what's enough? 

Can never ever get sick of being with you <3

Just wanna say all's been well. Can't be any happier than now. Guess good things really come to those who wait, then work hard to keep them 

Can't wait for my favorite season of the year to come, heh. Till then! 

We fly we fly

Just some thoughts before I fall into deep slumber 

We're into the 5th day of November already, oh how time flies. This year passed us by so quickly, when you think about it the time to stop and smell the roses is near minimal 

I have so much to say about everything going on in my life, but to write as it is doesn't really appeal to anyone anymore. We all live the same (mundane)(hectic)(exhausting) life.

Been pondering a lot about what the future holds.. Where will I be in the next five years? 

Everyone is so concerned about getting a degree, do they realize how education, although important, is eating away your youth? 

Of course we know how this country looks upon people with a higher education, and those without compensate with hard labour, but afterall, what really matters? 

Is it the cert or is it this life you'll only get to live through once?

I have doubts. Doubts about people in the world, doubts about myself. I certainly hope to believe I am capable enough to push as many frontiers till I find a place I belong 

Long way to go before I become a curator, but I will make it

Faith always brings people far, doesn't it?

Halt

Sometimes I feel I have no time for other commitments than school and family, but when I think back on all the down times in my life, you've never really left, then all the bad thoughts just go away 

I've come into an epiphany for the past months I've been alone, that life doesn't just stop when you're sad, it doesn't just go when you're happy, it doesn't work like that 

Embrace life they say. I am thankful :)

Earls

How long will I love you?

As long as stars are above you/ And longer if I can

xx

Love looks like you and i

Have had the best birthday, ever. 

I was asked a few days back, whats the best thing to do on the last few days of being 18, i didn't have an answer.

But now that things see the light, the best thing that ever happened to me is you. I love you and i love how you love me even more. It's the longest time i've been away from heart affairs but i'm not one bit losing faith. 

Have got my family and now someone whom loves me for me, things just get better every year :')

Bells spell

I don't feel like I want to come back here 

But the irony is whatever you see now. Where is this going 

Life's been better at the very least, work's been on track and everything else is just there for being there 

Turning 19 in a few weeks time and it's nice to see people being more excited over it than I am. I am blessed, I just don't know how to embrace it 

I'll update with piccas at the end of the month, this space with all words bore the shit out of me already 

Not alone anymore, but just not really there yet. Who am I sharing happy times with

Life goes on

Fck

Some people just don't fucking get it

Lights that guides

Frustrated with nothing at all 

Started Tuesday well with positive feedback from the hardest lecturer to please but when dawn approached everything changed

I don't know wtf I'm feeling right now but one thing I'm sure- it doesn't feel good. 

Am I still sour over things I cannot change? 

So many things on hand to think about, but I wish I had even more so it occupies every empty cell in my brain to stop negative thoughts from coming in. I keep talking about how change is the only constant and the only person whom doesn't practice what they preach is me

I feel like an idiot sometimes but that's okay. We all feel stupid somedays 

My space practically revolves around the same things all the time. Everything underneath this skin is bored to the bones 

Till when am I gonna allow this pretense to take me by the nose? 

What am I actually feeling? But then again so what if I know, nothing's gonna change

Maybe the truth is I don't want to get better, I still want to live in denial.

Life sucks. I'm a weirdo. Bye

What makes you smile

Haven't felt like this in a long while, in a good way that is

Aloha you all. I wonder if anyone still reads this space since it feels so gloomy here all the time 

Just wna say that the way an individual embraces change says alot about what they are made of. I used to be so scared of changes, for awhile I hated it. I hate it when things change, good or bad, happy or sad 

But it finally got to me that change is the only constant. If we stay put at where we are and stop at whatever we're comfortable with, life will just remain as it is. 

And remember how we're always told to live life instead of just being alive? Yeah there you go 

For a long while I've been hesitant to make changes bcuz i lack the courage to take risks, and I've had people alongside me telling me what perfection seems like to them. Right now it actually feels good knowing that I don't have anyone to dictate what makes me appear 'better'

We all wna see the world and make people see it in the same spectrum as ourselves. But if we take a step back and go beyond whatever restricts us, this world actually has so much more to offer 

Doing what makes you feel good is what matters at the end of the day 

Bullets

There is so much I have yet to say about everything going on in my life. But somedays when I pop by this space, it just feels too solemn and depressed for happy thoughts to thrive 

One day I decide I need to be happy, the next i find myself buried in a pile of loose ends and what not 

The tendency to look back into my life somehow propels me into the future, even though I still find ropes just dangling on empty walls, waiting for me to climb and go back to where I wish I could be right now; or where I don't wna be anymore 

Keep moving they say, even Nemo knows this better than me 

I've seen so many superior things suppressed by mediocrity, but the pursuit of pleasure doesn't stop just there 

Mediocre things don't interest me anymore. I am seeking for something more 

Why dont you satisfy my hunger already

Tangible intangible

Worn out from school everyday 

But I like how it feels. I like how it keep things off my mind. 

Let this fatigue engulf me so it keeps me going. What an irony but you get the drift

Goodnight to my exhausted soul 

Life

Stop. 

It isn't that bad. 

Vines

Need to get used to leaving school at 1030pm and later every Monday..... And sleeping even later bcuz workload just keeps piling up 

Only 8.03pm on a Tuesday and my eyelids can barely hold themselves up anymore 

But ironically I don't mind feeling this tired everyday so ill just go to bed without sinking in em' depressing and incessant thoughts 

I am weird

But that's okay

-

The truth hurts, but the truth heals. 

What am I still sad about?

Tidal waves

To not beat yourself up over things you can't change

I need to learn. But as easy as it seem, everything visual right now just makes me want to bury my face into the sheets and sleep forever 

Work load is crazy and everything else just follows 

Someone grant me the strength to pull through this arduous semester

Passenger - Things That Stop You Dreaming

Well if you can't get what you love, you learn to love the things you've got/ If you cant be what you want, you learn to be the things you're not/ If you cant get what you need, you learn to need the things that stop you dreaming

March

Intentionally seeing things I know would make my heart fall all the way to my legs, just so to remind myself that I'm still alive, breathing and feeling 

7 months have passed us by, time really flies but I am not one bit surprised. Things are happening, plants are growing, and I am still stationary on a wasteland beyond salvation 

Get up tiny, it's probably about time  

Puddles

They asked if i had a choice to choose- one that is perfect but short-lived, or one that is imperfect but last for a life time? 

I would go for the latter. 

Feeling more than I should on a Sunday morning. Just wish sometimes I could just give certain things I don't wanna see a go and just continue the happy stride.

We all wished feelings doesn't exist sometimes. But then again, I'll rather hurt than feel nothing at all. 

Ill be okay 

Swim deep

Oh why hello there

Had a free day today on the first week of school because nie has yet to start. But free days are evil, they disrupt my on going momentum 

Been sleeping the whole of today and who knows where this fatigue came about

Everything is going too fast in my life. I have yet to come to face that I'm in the last year of studies in NAFA, and soon enough ill be dealing with more than what I'm capable of 

Thinking about what's in stall for me in future gives me the creeps but what's better than embracing it with open arms?

I have decided too, that I want to focus on my studies for now and dish aside whatever distracts me. I want to do well not only for my parents but for everyone that looks highly upon me. 

Days have been better than mundane but not so much worth elaborating. Just living life and pretty much just having more alone time 

Some days I feel like I need somebody to be in my life to share my joy and carry my pain. But somedays I know if I'm not strong enough to hold myself together how do I hold two 

Its the longest time i havent had anyone alongside but being alone isn't that bad after all 

The time to feel again will come, for now contentment shall get me by

Knots and spots

They say you never really stop caring for someone no matter how things have changed 

All these subtle yet impactful feelings are stirring up again. Pains me to see whatever is appearing before me but pains me even more to know i can do nothing to make things better. We all want the best for ourselves and the people we care about isn't it

Just hoping this little bit goes a long way 

Pleats

Been drawing a lot lately to keep things off my mind 

But at 3.11AM thoughts just have to come into a whirlpool. I don't wna feel I really don't wna feel 

Everything feels so horrible. 

:'( 

Take me away

Tick tock

Another night seeing the minutes passed as I lay rested on my comfy bed 

Haven't been able to sleep at all lately and I really wonder what's keeping me up. My mind right now is really anything but clouded

Talked to liling about how I'm happy with things in my life right now, and she agrees that some people are just too nice you want to keep them to yourself. 

I've made mistakes in the past this I don't deny. It's hard to make up for whatever already happened but it's better late than never 

It's about time I start widening my lenses to look at people before I decide to plate my feelings accordingly. 

Days will get better, slowly but surely 

Boo

It's so hard everything is so hard

Either you help yourself or no one will help you at all. 

Threading on thin ice but I'm sure it will get me somewhere 

Faith faith, bring me far away 

Bloom

420AM in bed fighting the hunger pangs 

Slow yet steady air blowing out from the only working machine in this cold dark space makes the best resting environment ever, and now you question why I'm not asleep

Tonight is one of those nights where I feel so much more about everything than usual 

You know somedays I really just wna get access to this online diary and delete everything that appears before my eyes bcuz so what if I pen them down 

It doesn't guarantee no shit

But then again after all has come into place, it feels nice to look back once in awhile and know what years in my life were wasted on (happy or sad it doesn't matter)

To that I have no doubts about this horrible indecisiveness living in me

That aside, some things which should have gotten into my head since forever is finally in 

I no longer find myself wanting to please just anyone else anymore. It's not about compromising and conforming to things when I don't get my way, rather it is about time I start to care for myself like I do for others 

No doubts to say everything works two ways. The phone, people, and even the traffic. So why should we feel miserable just so the other party could feel otherwise? Gaining joy out of misery is just sick in the mind 

It has to come to a point in life where people get tired of doing things they do not like, and I guess this new phase in life is just as hard to pull through as whatever frontiers we were made to conquer 

To better days ahead they say 

Fuck u

So blind when it comes to loving people

I have made the wrong choice yet again but whatever that has happened doesn't bring me down anymore

Saying I am used to it isn't right so ill just say that some people are not worth your time 

To hell they go. I will do better alone than with one who makes me feel like I don't matter all the fucking time 

Go away. I can exist on my own. 

To hell

Why am I always fucking living for someone else 

Why am I always affected by people who are supposed to mean nothing but shit to me

What is wrong with my damned life 

Screw all of you

Breathe

Wanted to just jot things down on a notebook like i would usually do but unfortunately i've ran out of one so here i am today

I don't know what made me decide that sharing my personal life on public space doesn't seem that appealing anymore. The moment i write about how happy i am, the next i find myself trapped in four walls of grief

Tbh i am not a rash person, but when i know of a minor detail of something that can affect me and everything else after that, all i want to do is to dig out the truth and the core of that issue. All that suspense and uncertainty i just can't deal with

Thankful however that i got to say whatever i felt like i needed to, and even more thankful to have ears backing up my tears. I just wish people would always listen before making a stand point on whatever issues they face in life

Right now i am so afraid of losing everything i have in my life. The number of people whom have walked out on me in the past just makes me feel like i am of no worth to be loved at all

Fear? Or love you say

Keeping my fingers crossed that whatever is forthcoming will go smoothly and even better than planned. I cannot afford to keep loving one now and losing everything then

I get tired too......

And always remember that you do not give up on the people you love, whatever it may be

Pitter platter

I've just been feeling very chirpy lately and I really liked it

Oh and guess who's coming back from Japan tonight!!!!! 6 days away from you I'm surprised I'm not dead yet hahaha

Can't wait for later;)

To a better now

Couldn't sleep that very night so I dragged mom up to talk to her about whatever that was on my mind 

And I am more than surprised and happy to hear that she's so supportive over this issue it actually makes me feel like I shouldn't have said the things I did, so on the very next day I made a change. Nothing feels better than getting things off my chest. 

Started my Friday happy and ended it even happier. 

I guess all that you seek in life comes as planned. The more you don't ask for, the more you deserve it. Lets all welcome this brand new phase in life with open arms 

Lots of love

Tonight is a confession night.

I feel I haven't been rly honest about myself and everything else ever since the start of the year. I've been living in denial for months and I guess the time to man up is now 

No I will not deny how upset I've been for a long time after whatever happened. But I got better. I just didn't rly wanna accept the fact that I am better. I drowned myself in self pity thinking that getting over whatever and moving forward is not possible. But I've already moved far beyond that 

And I did for a more than anyone else realized 

I found out that I can be good on my own too. But then again, I am never really on my own. Great mates here and there and of course, guys who wanted to go after me the past months. 

And I think I have to emphasize that the more they try to act all big shot and control me in whatever I do when they are of no status just makes me cringe. Honestly just shoo. Who are you anyway 

Bcuz of that I shun away from many of them. And I don't feel bad at all bcuz well, first I don't like you, second you are not my bf, and third who do you think you are to get jealous over whoever I talk to 

Go away eew

And then this person came along. All nice and sincere and everything. 

I wanted to do this post bcuz prior to it, tonight I got confessed to. 

To be my doctor when I'm ill. To be my hands to hold when I feel scared. To be everything I need in my life to feel more complete than everybody else

On top of that comes a hand written card. And a box of flowers made with tape. So much sincerity and love, time and affection. 

But I still let people down. I am such an awful person. 

I feel bad. But I know honesty will always remain the best policy. 

And then again, whoever loves you will not give up on you, ever 

I am upset with myself bcuz I bring upon sadness to another. But I know we will all be fine and even better. 

We will go far. Maybe just not now

Chimes

Oh why hello there

Just another night trying to fall into deep slumbers with near zero successful attempts so I thought it'll be good to just pop by 

As I notice the minute hand of my bedroom clock tick away effortlessly, I am reminded once again how fast time mercilessly leaves whatever we've had far behind. The good, the bad, the happy and the sad. But maybe, just maybe it meant good once and for all 

Today marks the start of another new month, also, the end of half of a new year. Time flies, oh just how much have we grown in the past 6 months? 

This time last year I was happy. This time this year, I am still happy. I guess the level of happiness and joy we deem enough sometimes rely on the surrounding factors, which often gets the best of us 

I need to say that right now whatever I'm feeling feels great. A different kind of nice definitely but nevertheless, contentment is the highest level of joy

Some people you just don't want in your life anymore. And then comes the realization that whatever was once considered superior is actually commonly mediocre. 

It is prolly about time to welcome whatever that is forthcoming. I must welcome the good from people to be better myself 

Things are looking brighter than ever

\^^/

Is this like the best day since forever? 

Everything else is much more than what meets the eye. It's going away.... Slowly but surely

I'll be back with a happier vibe this I promise

Beans

I am reminded how life isn't always well and happy every time i see a yellow poifull bean amongst the rest.

And yes life is tough, but i am tougher.

I promise i will come back with something chirpier bcuz i cannot stand this space feeling so uselessly mundane anymore.

Getting there i'm getting there

Twirls

25/8/2012 6:10PM.

Time flies. 

Nod

They ask why my space feels so dark and bitter when actually i look so much happier than that

They say i am getting better.

But who knows I question myself that everyday

-

It is probably about time i stop feeling like shit whenever my eyes drift across the old bouquets of flowers sitting amongst my plushies

You don't know how hard i've been trying to rid of this shitty feeling inside me, and somedays when they're gone it makes me really happy, but sadly it doesn't stay. Lately i treat everything so lightheartedly that i don't feel nothing at all

"To be better not bitter" has been stuck in my head, but my heart feels otherwise. I want them to come together so at the very least i know where i'm headed, but then again some things in life just doesn't go the way you want it to

I think the person most deserving of a slap right now is me. Why am i bitter? Why am i still bitter?

Where

I can never go longer than two weeks without feeling like that

I am trying to be happy but why are things in my head saying otherwise

Medley

Wow finally a proper post after what seems like forever.

School's been really busy that time for anything else other than homework is not granted. Not new to anything since it has been this hectic since the first semester but somehow or rather it feels so much worser this time. I can go on and on about how work load is suffocating me but since i'm still here and all's well, i shall give that a miss.

We're 4 months into a new year already, not too late to realize how fast time flies. Life's been pretty decent the past months i guess i don't have rights to ask for more.

January was really tough with starting a new school term and everything else that came crashing down on me. I often question if i'm not good enough for anyone, since no matter how hard i try things just have to come to an end. Looking back to the whole of 2011, i've had really fun and happy times, times i wished i would relived again. But i guess when some things don't work out you just have to let it go

Whole of my february and almost half of march was spent just living in denial. I know no matter how bad things escalated to, we cannot escape from heart ache. The idea of departure is always just this upsetting

But i am thankful for this heart ache

The desperate need to get things off my mind led me to joining Hom Yoga. First try made me want to continue going back. The place, the people, the activity- everything else there just feels so nice. An hour there makes me feel like i've been freed from whatever negative vibes i want to chase away. Talking about Hom i haven't been going there for about 2 weeks now bcuz of the countless deadlines and submissions and what not. But in a month or less i will dedicate all my time for that

End of march i decided that feeling this way is not going to get me anywhere. We all have to strive to be better, not bitter. Thank god for my mates and other people who care enough to be listening to whatever rants i have, and even though they might not offer helpful advices, im just glad they gave me their ears

You know how sometimes when the people you lost comes back, you don't know if it's a yay or nay? Since if they left once, they will leave again. But yes everyone deserves a second chance

Mak came back after being away for a year. I have to admit that no one is as witty and wise as him, and despite the 6 years age gap between us, the comfortability is still present. I'm thankful that no matter how clouded it gets up in my head, he has his ways of getting me back on track. This is the kind of friendship anyone would desire. Having a 'big bro' actually really feels nice

This friend of 6 years came back around too. Funny how the years apart didn't really do us any damage, instead, to see how much both of us have grown over the years warms the heart. Caught up over Starbucks somewhere in April and to hear how everyone around us have changed actually just makes me realize that the decisions you make in life really determines what kinda person you are

And i'm really glad that i am who i am today.

On nights i can't fall asleep my mind wanders everywhere and then i question if letting people back is worth it or not. If it works out then yes you get to keep them, and if it doesn't then dealing with departure for the second time actually isn't as easy. Right now i just hope that whoever i let back in will not disappoint

If you ask me what's been on my mind, i would honestly say just patches of empty clouds. I just wish people would fill them up in the way i want them to, since time to stop doing so much for others should be now

Love yourself tiny, before others can love you.

Emerge

// Is it a blessing in disguise?

Linger

I remember how doing things 'together' meant doing the same things at the same time while at different places.

I remember how thick the consistency of a packet of instant porridge you would willingly and happily consume.

I remember how the smile would form over your face the moment you sense my presence when you wake up from your little naps.

I remember how conveying sensitive thoughts meant writing letters and forbidding each other to read while in any of our presence.

I remember so many minor things that played a huge part in the love life I once had. But I guess they still remain as happy thoughts bcuz I find myself smiling when they appear in my head.

I am no longer clouded by the idea of loose ends, for some things are better left unknown.

We will grow out of this shell and emerge as something so much stronger and wiser

But meanwhile, I will take my time

Long lived

I've been wanting to blog about this for a really long time, and my presence here today therefore.

A few days back on my journey to school, this aged man went around the bus stop asking strangers for directions. I couldn't hear what the conversation between the man and the others was, since i had my earpiece on. From their actions tho, i realize that age has caught up and he's partially blind.

166 came. He followed the navigations people gave and boarded the bus - a white cane in one hand, his wife in another. To my dismay his wife has lost her sight too. They got up the bus with careful steps and alighted two stops after.

I know how this isn't any big issue but it occurred to me that sometimes, love isn't what you see, but what you feel. I might not know how losing my sight feels since now that i'm still young and healthy, but in time to come, who will love you when you're not complete as one?

Being happy together and being happy alone are two different things. Yes you could own luxurious properties and cars and what not, but at the end of the day, you're sharing this joy with no one but yourself. I think in all no matter how strong a person is, love keeps them going.You could always say that a life long partner is a bonus given that your family will always be there, but on second thoughts, the things they can provide, are they the same? Are they enough?

Another day while i was jogging around my neighborhood, i got distracted by the vibrant colors appearing at the corner of my eyes. I turned and took a glance, and smiled at the sight of a happy family. The mom and dad were both in hot pink, so was the kid in the stroller. In my head i know how much love can do, how much it over rides the guy for him to be in pretty pink

All these little things made me realize how beautiful this world can be sometimes, and how things can go beyond perfection when you're doing it with people whom mean the world to you

I may be young and not exposed enough to be talking about love openly, but i know i sure do have the rights to express how far some actions can go. The definition of love tho, remains a mystery

Soon enough you'll see a little bit goes a long way

Alligator sky

Tonight I lay in bed feeling different. A better and happy kind of different

I let thoughts of all emotions flow to the back of my head like that of which the water in the stream would, and i was led to a place where things were beautiful and nothing else

Days in the past weeks felt like months of nothingness. I still welcomed March with open arms however, letting all the good I've been missing out come back into my life. I live by thinking that it is never too late to realize what life has in stall for you, be it happy or blue

Whatever makes me happy now is what I choose to put inside my head.

Tonight I just wanna say that being happy actually feels good again.

Hover

My intention of visiting this space to type out something logical is always made up from all the sad thoughts, contradicting not only the post below, but also the efforts i've been putting in the past month to shoo em' sadness away

I still find myself listening to the recordings i have of you in my phone on nights that i can't sleep, even tho i could have had more if i didn't forget to sync the old one. The sense of familiarity keeps me safe and sane, sometimes making me hate the extra space i have on my bed

Having heard things about you here and there, i wonder if i ever knew you at all. How can love built up and shared over months be dished aside that easily?  Or is it that our love isn't strong enough for you to want to just idle in it for a little while more

Saturday nights just dump me back into the pool of upset thoughts all over again.

Like old times, i wish you were here

But you've probably wandered far enough to hear nothing of it. Wake up tiny wake up. Wake up and get over yourself

Echoes

I couldn't decide if i bear to just leave everything behind and start anew, but all i know is i don't want to leave sad trails on a happy track, so therefore the very clean and fresh looking space you see.

I reckon that happy things should be kept wherever they are, even though most of the time they are already deeply etched within. I've had so much joy in my life with people whom i love, and i guess it's time to leave them where they are and place my foot somewhere else. 

It's almost been a month now, very curious how my heart is doing. I've been feeling sad for long enough to come to a point where i don't feel sad anymore. I just feel empty, and i guess that's okay, since then at least i still feel 

There are a whole lot of things i still want to do even without anyone to do with, because i know life doesn't always go the way i want it to. I steer to places where i feel happy, let my hair down to feel the air sweeping across my delicate skin, only to realize it all happened in my head

I've come into epiphany that i cannot continue letting others patch me up where i wound and then run off to let myself get hurt again. People whom care will always care, likewise the opposite 

To feel sad alone doesn't really seem like it's just me every time, since being the happy pie no longer bringing joy upset others too. I need to be okay, i will be okay, i am okay

Today will be the last day i grief, for tomorrow awaits brighter things